Monday, January 22, 2007

生病了。。

前几天身体向我发出严重的抗议,伤风啦,咳嗽啦,头晕头痛啦,呕吐啦,泻肚啦,接二连三地接踵而来。害我拿了好几天的病假在家。也把家里的笨蛋弄得团团转。。嘻嘻。。

虽然现在是好了七七八八,但后遗症还是多少有一点。偶尔晕晕头,反反胃,痛痛背等,但还好啦。至少还能上上班,玩玩电脑,看看电视,吃喝玩乐的。。可是老妈却担心的很,一直在耳边不停的督促,要把身子养好,不然。。

唉。。谁叫我是她三个孩子当中让她的头最痛的。

每年都告诉自己要好好修身养性,调好身体,不要向病魔屈服。可是,我呢,嘴又馋,人又懒,爱胡思乱想,所以每次都不成功。真是孺子不可教也,朽木雕不着。。哈哈。。

不管如何,大家不要向我‘学习’,要好好的照顾自己。尤其新年要到了,大吃大喝可不行。切记切记。。嘻嘻。。

Wednesday, January 3, 2007

圣诞节!

Posted on Friendster Blog on 2006.12.25

今天是圣诞节,
是我最喜爱的节日之一。

今年前夕呢,
有大餐,有圣诞老人,有小仙女,
有小礼物,有好看的电影等。。
想想,可能最开心的是,
今年这帮朋友都算到齐了。
但是我却累倒了,
因为前一天刚考完我的日语,
姐姐和我都杀死了不少细胞。。
想尽情的玩,但懒意更浓。
哈哈哈。。。

这几天,
有绵绵细雨,
有倾盆大雨,
有阵阵雷声,
有凉凉风吹,
似乎好像老天爷给的,
一个类似白色圣诞的天气。
纵然没有下雪,
但细雨也有异曲同工之妙。
嘻嘻。。

很快的,新的一年就快来了,
今年呢,
好像没什么成就,
真不好意思。。嘻。。
还让一些人替我担忧。
或许新的一年会更好!!

新一年,大家都要加油哦!

祝你
圣诞快乐 和 2007 年快乐!!!

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yoz..the xmas photos can be found on my blog @ www.jingsixuan.com
Posted by: Kai Ling
December 28, 2006 09:07 PM

三思而行

Posted on Friendster Blog on 2006.12.15

我想还是收敛一点,
不然伤了别人,
也害了自己。。

知道自己的不好,
但是还是不自觉的,
做了自己会后悔的事。

虽然每次都会自我检讨,
警戒自己下次别再犯了,
但是仍然不变。

站在别人的立场,
能明白当事人的感受,
我需要学习在做任何事之前,
好好用脑袋去思考,
不会带给人家或自己,
没必要的误会与不快。。

唉。。
做人真的很难。。

忘了

Posted on Friendster Blog on 2006.10.30

突然觉得自己真的忘了很多事物。
忘了爱笑的自己,
忘了疯狂的自己,
忘了爱玩的自己,
忘了乐观的自己,
忘了单纯的自己,
忘了好胜的自己,
忘了坚强的自己等。。。

渐渐的,也开始
忘了因简单的快乐,
忘了为梦想的努力,
忘了对雨天的迷恋,
忘了爱唱歌的执着,
忘了听歌曲的感动,
忘了对小说的喜爱,
忘了读漫画的沉迷,
忘了搭巴士的乐趣,
忘了看电影的动容,
忘了接近海的喜悦等。。
原来不知不觉真的忘了好多。。

可能因为太在意一些事,
现实的压力让我有心无力,
渐渐对自己严苛,不谅解,
并且自我封锁。
在那个狭小的空间里,
不断地批评,贬低,
造成许多的不安与不快。

我想这是我的低潮吧。
虽然不是第一次,
只是没想过这次的会那么久,
也演变成了我忘了那么多事物。

或许还需要一点时间,
暂时放纵一下,
可能我会找会那个自己吧。
我会加油的。。。

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你的过去打造了今天的你。
将来会有怎么的你,
就看你现在如何去创造。
祝你:平安。幸福。快乐
娘 启
Posted by: Ming Hui
November 6, 2006 07:42 AM

七年了。。

Posted on Friendster Blog on 2006.09.14

大约七年前,我跟一个笨蛋开始交往。
大约三年前,我成为他合法的另一伴。
直到去年,我才成为他明媒正娶的妻子。

记得初次认识的时侯,我们彼此都没有留下深刻的印象。
他还曾经说他对我的印象很差,因为觉得我很吵闹。
不过,渐渐的因为有所来往,才较为熟络。

他不是个标准的情人,
因为他友情大过天。时常重友轻色,
有时又因为打游戏,看电视等而冷落我,
却还能每次理直气壮的说自己没错。

他不是个浪漫的情人,
虽然点子很多,但却很懒得去做。
只有一次因为没在一起过圣诞节,
他才浪漫地请人送了一大束花和娃娃给我。

他不是个会甜言蜜语的情人,
因为要他说句话来哄你,
他只会用笨蛋或小猪来取笑你,
就算你故意生气,
他也只跟你打哈哈敷衍过去。

他不是个顺从的情人,
不管你如何哄他,威胁他,
只要是他不想或不愿意,
他对你的要求会通通不理会,
有时还会摆个臭脸给你。

他不是个脾气好的情人,
爱脸黑黑就黑,
爱不理你是什么都不说,
还好他不会拿东西打人。
不然我就完了。

他不是个炫耀的情人,
你几乎不会听到他对我的称赞,
有时还会在别人面前,故装可怜,
害我哑巴吃黄莲,有苦说不清。
可是他也不会到处跟人数我不是。

但是。。。

他是个贴心的情人,
会在你累了或无助的时候,
一直静静在你的身边,不离不弃,
鼓励着你,替你加油。

他是个细心的情人,
一个眼神,一个动作,或一个暗示,
他都能猜到我的想法和‘阴谋’。
所以他自称是我肚子里面的蛔虫,
什么也逃不过他。

他是个宠坏我的情人,
只要是我喜欢的事物,
他必会多加留意,
在你不经意时,把它送给你,
不然就陪着你盲目的追求。

他是个谅解的情人,
不管我多多愁善感,无理取闹,
他都只会在我情绪闹完后,
无奈地轻轻敲我的头,
问我姨妈是不是要来道访。

他是个让我有元气的情人,
不管遇到挫折,新的挑战等,
只要看到他,听到他的声音,
或一个鼓励的眼神,
都会很安心地去面对。

不管我的身材象股市般忽高忽低,
他都说我可爱,但瘦点会更好。
不管我睡觉时一直踢被子,
他都在临睡前帮我把脚盖好。

等等等。。。

爱一个人不需要任何理由,
但在热情过后,理智清醒,
你是不是还能像当初一样,
对他的好与坏仍然照单全收呢?
我想他可以。

我想如果这段感情不能长久。
我想我们也能笑着说再见,
但希望这天永远不会来。

好了,
不能说他太多好话,
不然他会飘飘然的。
送给我的笨蛋,
Pre-七年之痒的礼物。
哈哈。。。

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I only got 1 sentence for you :"Your Chinese language is excellent!". Haha
Posted by: Tomoko ShinYan
September 15, 2006 04:51 AM

好幸福的七年,好另人羡慕的七年。
Posted by: UnWanTed FAtSo
November 1, 2006 09:24 AM

在你的文字里,你也让我感到好幸福哦!
但愿你两此生此世,此情永不虞!
Posted by: Ming Hui
November 6, 2006 07:57 AM

which one is you?

Posted on Friendster Blog on 2006.08.22

在權力的面前,人變的脆弱
在金錢的面前,人變的貪婪
在地位的面前,愛顯的多餘
而在生命的面前你其實只是浩瀚長河中的一粒沙

有一座白色的塔,裡面的人都拼命的往上爬,因為他們相信到了塔頂就可以看見天空,但是塔裡沒有樓梯,他們必須踩著彼此的身體,才有往上爬的可能,在先來後到的邏輯下,早來的人、懂得方法的人,總是可以得到優先權。因為塔裡沒有樓梯,他們必須踩著彼此的身體,才有往上爬的可能。

在先來後到的邏輯下,早來的人、懂得方法的人、有強烈的慾望想爬上去的人,總是有機會爬的快一點。這是一個塔,也是一個戰場,所以時時需要消毒、整理,因為傷痕累累血跡斑斑,同時,塔裡卻也不斷的製造新生命或修補毀壞的生命,這是往上爬必須的代價。

有一個人,終於有一個人以為他到了塔頂,觸摸到那個他以為是陽光落下來的窗子,才發現窗子原來早就鎖起來了,永遠都打不開,他才發現窮其一生,用一切來交換往上爬的機會,原來換到的只是一個鎖住的窗戶。

也有些人,不喜歡在過程中,必須被踩踏或踩踏別人的感覺,於是他們選擇離開這座塔,尋找其他的出路。也有人選擇了永遠都作墊底的那一個,他只要能在其中生存就夠了。而有些人,總是毫不客氣的,繼續往上爬…

Adapted from CTV website for a Taiwanese show call ‘白色巨塔’, The Hospital.

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人,是可以选择是否要主宰自己的命运。
那,你是否有勇气做决择呢?
Posted by: Ming Hui
November 6, 2006 08:05 AM

jus a thought

Posted on Friendster Blog on 2006.08.03

yesterday jus went to watch a show 'Click'.. it was a fun show with meaning, where u will know towards the ending of the show. this guy in the story works a lot and keep forgetting things he promise his family.. reason is that he need to provide the best for family.. so he been talking of work when family gathering, missing his son's competition, delaying completion of the tree hse.. etc..everything is work work work...

one day where he drove off to find a universal remote control, he received a remote control where he can manipulate with his life.. being forward, pause, skip, rewind etc..

he started to use the remote to forward his life, like skipping argument with his wife, gng thru gathering with his parents etc..however, he is not aware that this remote has a function of remembering the things he has forwarded.. example is whenever he started to argue with his wife, the remote will auto forward to the next stage...suddenly he found himself in a situation where things changed..

all bcos he forward his life and he been in an 'auto-pilot' stage where work is everything.. he missed a lot of things in life, like his dad's death, his divorce, his children growth etc.... he regretted for everything, but ending is that he managed to re-started the whole thing again... think u will have a better idea after watching the show, my explanation very poor... haha ;p)

coming to think abt it, this is the situation most ppls are in..

we are to busy meeting schedules, working, earning money, making plans for retirement... etc, we always missed out the real things besides us.. when was the last time we actually can really really relax not thinking of work, when was the last time we actually spend quality time with loved ones saying things deep in the heart, when was the last time u hug ur parents to show them u really love them?

everyday, can see ppls gng to work, with a zombie face, where for some, meeting up with family and friends becoming a hassle. after a day work, we all jus wanna sleep or sit aside doing things we wan like watching tv or playing games... everyday becoming stressed and tiring... life is really nothing else but work eat sleep...

even though the government been promoting family life, but in reality we can't meet that.. we all need the bread and in spore, we can be replaced very easily.. sigh... things are really easier to say than done...

ever came across a quote, it says that where one is at his deathbed or during sickness (serious), he will normally think that why din he spend time with family, why din he tell his loved one how much he loved them etc, but not think of why he din get promoted, why din he worker harder to meet this and that... how funny... but sadly, it is the truth...

jus a thought.... haha ;p

a song to share..

Posted on Friendster Blog on 2006.07.01

have modified a song which i like recently, part of the chorus been changed during my sianz time in the mrt... jus for fun... This is the 'Going to KTV' version. Haahaa ;p
给我你的钱,
好让我能去KTV。
给我你的钱,
唱呀唱着好痛快ah ah。
就算唱到超时,
我也不在乎,
只要你有足够钱,
能让我付账。。woowoo...
(modified from a song '给我你的爱', sang by Tank)

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Bravo! Bravo! nice conversion..
Keep it Up!! (",)
Posted by: Kyoko aka Jie
July 2, 2006 08:15 AM

迷路

Posted on Friendster Blog on 2006.04.28

最近啊,
会听到朋友说很多人,甚至是自己,
不知道未来的路该如何走下去。
现在的我们是不是
算是一天过着一天,
但是我们心灵里其实是空虚的,
因为现在所过的生活,
可能不是你所想要的。。
人因梦想而伟大,
这句话对有些人并不陌生,
可是真正能朝梦想前进的又有几个?
一个老掉牙的问与答。
随着突然的成长,
随成长而来的责任,
随责任而生的压力,
有几个人会咬着牙关去面对解决,
有几个会选择不顾一切的去逃避呢?
当人的心到一个麻痹点的时候,
会不会觉得对一切的物与事,
都开始不再那么的有兴趣,
会开始对周围有一种无名的排斥感,
也渐渐的会忘了年幼时所坚持的梦。
如果有一天你突然迷路,
徘徊在十字路口,
不要害怕,
因为你不会是唯一一个有
这样的感觉。
大家都在寻找着对的路,
虽然也不知道那条路,
是不是真的是对的。
你呢?
祝君早日寻得不悔路,快快乐乐走下去。。
(后记:有感而发,看倌只需看了就忘。请当作是无稽之谈。 哈哈。。)

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

Posted on Friendster Blog on 2006.01.31

wah, so fast to send the rooster away to its 12yrs journey again and having the doggie to stay put and watching over now.. now reflecting back, me jus got married, jus got my diploma, jus have a baby niece.. without achieving much... the brand new year has arrived....

so wat can I do this yr? dun know leh.. din exactly have a plan yet. think me will still look and laz ard, maybe finding time for myself and my family more, bring my parent out more, blackmail my boy more (poor fellow...), go out wif my friends or sister more (depending on if my friends still remember me... haha ;p), save up more, work hard more, learning more things, watch idol shows more, listening to music more, go KTV more, sleep more, eat more, got slim more, talk cock more, be unreasonable more, train my temper more, hold my mouth more, listen to ppl more... etc etc.... craps.... haha ;p

most importantly, hoping to start study this yr and get a degree soon (sianz...) but before all, me need to recharge my body and be happier and peaceful to substain my inner self... hope this yr will not think too much... been gng thru a hard rooster yr, there are ups and downs all the time... though sometimes it is really hard to pull through and almost wanna jus give up. been dreaming of throwing everything off and jus leave... hope that the doggie yr will be better for everyone...

should be thankful for having a hubby who dote on me, a family who cares for me and some friends though seldom meet up but their sms always come in time to brighten up my days. SO now me shouting out, those who wanna see me meet me or wat, dun hesitate leh.... Call me leh... I can ask my hubby to eat himself anyday anytime... haha ;p (getting more and more thick-skinned liaoz....)

ya, must be more content with the things i am having now..

hmm... now me dun know wat i talking liaoz... aiya, too much thing to say too much to write...

NEVERTHELESS, HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR AND MAY ALL UR WISHES AND DESIRES COME TRUE!!!

CHEERS!!!

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happy new year!
Posted by: Huimin
February 3, 2006 07:13 AM

MY BSB CONCERT (it's ROCKING!!)

Posted on Friendster Blog on 2006.01.24

Last nite (24/1) went to Spore Indoor Stadium to watch the concert by my favourite boy-band, BACKSTREET BOYS!!! So happy!! It's been 5 yrs since I saw them with their new album 'Incomplete'... Miss them so much, which make me wanna cry when they came out from the backstage and started to sing....

No firework, no change in their costumes, jus a simple yet great and professional performance. It is the most craziest concert I ever attend. Of cos, 1st time for me to be so crazy till kept shouting and waving and singing and getting excited!! Though now body aching and voice hoarse, but it is worth it!

The fans in front started to stand and sing and swing body, ppl at the side oso standing, but my corner no one standing. however can see tat everyone is high cos the seat is trembling and ppl shaking their body on their seat... Till the last song, it was the whole stadium with standing and roaring ppls. There are so much I wanna share.... ;)

Now waiting for my friend to send me the photos she shot during the concert. A nite I never forget...

Kevin, Howie, Brian, AJ, Nick!! I love you so much!!!! BSB Rocks!!!!

給我身邊的那個他

Posted on Friendster Blog on 2005.08.02

我輕輕地舞著,在靜謐的天堂之中。
天使們投射過來異樣的眼神。
詫異也好,欣賞也罷。
並不曾使我的舞步凌亂。
因為令我飛揚的,不是天使們的目光。
而是我的青蛙王子。
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如果把整個浴缸的水倒出,也澆不熄我對你愛情的火燄。
整個浴缸的水全部倒得出嗎?..可以。
所以,是的。我愛你...
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Adapted from: 第一次的親密接觸 (蔡智恆)

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I love the poem! It is so touching! My eyes were filled with tears already.. I can feel it, it fills me with happiness too! Makes me think of the day when i attend you house warming. Do you know that you are my first friend couples to get married? Wonder when will mine come *hehe*
Posted by: Baoqing

Incomplete

Posted on Friendster Blog on 2005.07.25

A song for someone whom I have lost long time ago…

Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me
I can't find no rest
Where I'm going is anybody's guess

I've tried to go on like
I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is incomplete

Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby
It's written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake

I've tried to go on like
I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is incomplete

I don't mean to drag it on, but I can't seem to let you go
I don't wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go (alone)

I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I'm going to be is incomplete

Incomplete

Nothing...

Posted on Friendster Blog on 2005.07.14

checking out the blog here...

see so many of them having blogs... haha ;p me? nothing special, just a plain tomboy gal (friends and colleagues say more feminine now, but still very rough gal in terms of behaviour).. well, now working at my desk,typing the blog. too sianz liaoz.. been in this job for 4 yrs.. me working at changi airport, but NOT sia.. ppls tends to think airport is sia.. me in caas... the authority of airport.. but then who cares... hehe ;p

hmm... think my head not working again. recently a lot of things coming down on me. shoulder more and more heavy. can't help it.

like to sing a lot, ktv siaoz... fancy chinese boy grps like f4 (SURPRISED?can't help it leh.. meteor garden too deep impact on me), some not so popular boys in some ou xiang ju (frens say my taste very different cos they dun find them attractive) and some female singers like penny dai, sunyanzi (my hubby's favourite), liang jing ru etc... can call me for asession, but dun pin hope on vocal leh..

hmm... wat else? jus completed my study for pre-school teaching. thought can be teacher but then after my attachment make realise me might need to be more mature in handling things before going into this field. so wait wait loh. do miss the children encounter during the attachment. especially one jap gal called nao. only 2 and half yrs old. very cute... have attached her photo. take a look.. next time will attach the rest of the children if got chance... got kimo, megan, yongjie, lili, maxime etc etc... wah still can remember their names....

ok ok lah... next time write somemore. but not very good in writing it in english.. my england not powderful enough... maybe can try writing in chinese... need to find chinese software... haha ;p

おはよう! 私はエスターです!

你好啊!!

这是我刚新成立的blog place.希望能够透过这里与你分享我的喜与悲,还有有趣的事物。让你更了解我,或者更不了解我。哈哈哈。。。

我会从 Friendster 把以前的 posting 和 comments搬过来。也会经常update的。。

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Helo!!

This is a new blog that I have started to share with you my thoughts and any interesting things around me. I hope you can understand me better through this blog or maybe be more confused about the real me... Haha ;p

Will import the previous post and comments from the Friendster and update both regularly... Till then....