recently, my colleague has lost his 2 years old daughter who contracted pneumonia which leads to complications. the young girl has lost in the battle against the sickness and passed away. though i did not meet her before, but from the posting/pictures my colleague and his wife posted, she is a cute gal and a bright one as well.
perhaps being a mother changes my controlling of emotions, i cried when one of my colleagues informed me of the death. hearing the news makes all of us feel sorry and sad for the family. my deepest condolences to the family and hope the daughter will rest in peace.
being in the parenthood, i know it is a tough job, especially when now xavier is in his 'terrible two' phase (a guess of mine), and nurturing a young yorick, it can be quite tired and even tearful. have to handle their mood swing & tantrums, ensuring that they will not be learn the wrong ways of life from others etc. sometimes i just feel like leaving them aside when it gets too overwhelmed for me. however, deep down, i know i can't cos i love them and wanting to see them grow healthily, and to go through with them each single phase of their life, from infant to toddler, then young child to teenage and finally to adulthood. i treasure the moments with them. i hope they will be healthy and grow up as a happy & confident adults.
samson has also lost his grandmother during my confinement period. from what i know, she was the pillar, having all her grandchildren to love her deeply. the young ones visited and company her whenever they can, whether at home and during her stay in the hospital. they are filial and sensible, for which i am touched by it.
we must learn to treasure the moments with our loved ones more, and also taking care of ourselves so that we will be able to take care of them. with times where we have our differences and disagreement, we have to learn to be open-minded and compromise. saint i am not, as there are some portions of me still resisting the ideas to care for some people.
i pray for good health and well-being for my husband & sons, my parents, my siblings & their family, my parent-in-laws, brother-in-law & family, and of cos my friends..
I LOVE YOU :)
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Sunday, July 4, 2010
time to move on and treat myself better..
with the new family member, my dear 2nd son Yorick, in into my life, can't help feeling that i am a bit overwhelmed by the taking care of a newborn baby.. the joy, happy and the tiredness he brings me. when i hold him to sleep in my arms, kissing him, bathing him etc, and with feeding as one of the moments i am scared of, i know i am loving him more and more each day.
however, his arrival made me think that i should have done more for him and xavier as my 2 sons are my blessings. it is time for me to move on, first thing is to change my job. i just have my promotion, and leaving now seems a bit weird. but then, i need to have a change and hoping the new job will allow me to have more night times with my boys. the time now i have with them is little though sometimes i hope to have some 'ME' time.
also, i need to take care of my health more. after the confinement, i was down with fever for almost a week. the temperature was like stock market, up and down frequently. wanna kill myself then.. lolx.. it is really torturing to be sick and not able to do anything. been taking supplement and chinese herbs to boost my system. better than nothing. my mil has asked me to go visit chinese sinseh, and still i have yet to move my butt.. haha..
gonna spend more time with my own family too. no doubt we all have our differences, but then they are my family and i have to learn to love them more. i am really sorry to my mum who always panic when i called her during my weak moments, making her not able to sleep and called me back in tears fearing her daughter well-being. SORRY MUMMY :)
treat myself better, ya, have to dote myself more.. cannot always adapt to others and forget about me.. even i feel angry or unhappy, who cares? haha.. guess i have learnt to forget these feelings and just move on..
ok.. gotta see my boys liaoz.. mummy misses them.. haha.. ;p
however, his arrival made me think that i should have done more for him and xavier as my 2 sons are my blessings. it is time for me to move on, first thing is to change my job. i just have my promotion, and leaving now seems a bit weird. but then, i need to have a change and hoping the new job will allow me to have more night times with my boys. the time now i have with them is little though sometimes i hope to have some 'ME' time.
also, i need to take care of my health more. after the confinement, i was down with fever for almost a week. the temperature was like stock market, up and down frequently. wanna kill myself then.. lolx.. it is really torturing to be sick and not able to do anything. been taking supplement and chinese herbs to boost my system. better than nothing. my mil has asked me to go visit chinese sinseh, and still i have yet to move my butt.. haha..
gonna spend more time with my own family too. no doubt we all have our differences, but then they are my family and i have to learn to love them more. i am really sorry to my mum who always panic when i called her during my weak moments, making her not able to sleep and called me back in tears fearing her daughter well-being. SORRY MUMMY :)
treat myself better, ya, have to dote myself more.. cannot always adapt to others and forget about me.. even i feel angry or unhappy, who cares? haha.. guess i have learnt to forget these feelings and just move on..
ok.. gotta see my boys liaoz.. mummy misses them.. haha.. ;p
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